BlogEntryNo372

hollywood!

prom's today.

my dearfully date boyfee is already there for rehearsals.

he's mc-ing.

poor thing, always tired out. love ya, still!

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i am now Joanna, 19.

lomo pic-tahs from my birthday.

due to damaged and dead neurons that is being cleared by my myelin sheaths on the axons of my various neurons in areas such as cerebral cortex, i am exhausted and need to replenish rest by reading CLEO in my comfy cosy now-orange light room thanks to babester.

forgive the physio psychology-ness.

i think i did badly in that paper.

 

i forgot to take a picture of the tee i got from kimmy, the bestie. will do soon.

toodleloos!

BlogEntryNo370

princess for a day.

Growing old is like being increasingly penalized for a crime you have not committed...

Anthony Powell.

today...

is the day i realise time passes so fast.

is the day i change my profile to Joanna, 19.

is the day i come closer to another year.

is the day i enjoy myself.

is the day i declare im not a small girl anymore.

is the day i'll be a princess.

is the day i'll gleam widely.

today...

is the day i turn 19.

and..

mourn over the fact i only have one more year before the big 2-0.

Hiphiphooray!

BlogEntryNo369

guilty as charged.

 ⁴Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.⁸Love never fails

tell me, how do you be the perfect someone for someone else? 

if: you raise your voice when he ticks you off, you envy other girls who spend more time with him, you boast to hide insecurities, you seek for your own good, you get angry in a split second, you remember the wrong he did you, you know you should trust but you're struggling.

BlogEntryNo368

being beautiful.

whole article was taken from http://crimsonmaverick.blogspot.com/2009/05/beautiful-bride.html

Something worth reading despite being busy:

Katie Kirkpatrick, 21, held off cancer to celebrate the happiest day of her life. Katie had chased cancer, once only to have it return-to clog her lungs and grab hold of her heart. Breathing was difficult now, she had to use oxygen. The pain in her back was so intense it broke through the morphine that was supposed to act as a shield. Her organs were shutting down but it would not stop her from marrying Nick Godwin, 23, who was in love with Katie since 11th grade.

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21. Next to her, her fiancé, Nick, 23. The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US. Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication. In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end.

In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss.

And unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well. The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see her son marrying his high school sweetheart.  

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube, listening to a song from her husband and friends.

At the reception, Katie had to take a few rests. The pain did not let her stand up for long periods.

Katie died five days after her wedding day.  

Watching a woman so ill and weak yet getting married with a smile on her face makes us think..... Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it last. We should stop making our lives complicated. 

Life is not always the party we expected to be but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful. God bless us in many ways which our human eyes are just too blind to see. We may question why He took her away at such a young age (a mere 21 years old beautiful woman, mind you, just a year older than I am right now). But then again, He gave her the most priceless thing ever - Love. A husband. Family. Comfort. Peace. Joy. Positivity. If she can get her happiness as simple as that, why can't we?

 

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10 things i know that you know that i think you think should know.

Ten things i wish i could say to Ten different people:

1. thank you.

2. i miss you both.

3. grow up. 

4. i can't wait for prom. can you? =)

5. piKaBooh!

6. do you remember that time on that beach?

7. do you think im a horrible person?

8. i think i still don't like you, though i don't say it.

9. can i borrow your dslr, iTouch, mac and guitar?

10. good morning. how did sleep treat you, my dear?

Nine things about myself:

1. i cannot stand cutleries inside-out.

2. adam lambert's shrieks gives me the creeps (it rhymes!)

3. i am weird.

4. i thought you could throw bubble gum across the border in singapore since you can't bring them in when i was a kid.

5. i absolutely adore dendrobiums.

6. i love weddings.

7. i think brad pitt is still hot.

8. we fight almost every other day.

9. my thumbs are short, fat and stumpy.

Eight ways to win my heart:

1. answer one particular question and i'll judge.

2. be spontaneous.

3. be random.

4. melt my heart with kisses.

5. notice small things.

6. doing things together.

7. make me laugh.

8. do funny faces with me.

Seven things that cross my mind a lot:

1. drive safe.

2. Someone.

3. the-after-studying.

4. listening.

5. God.

6. the things i have to do.

7. constant cravings.

Six things i do before i sleep:

1. brush teeth.

2. put on some music.

3. get comfy.

4. pull on the covers and cuddle the pillow boyfee gave.

5. play a game of worms.

6. goodnight call or sms.

Five people who mean a lot to me:

1. Family.

2. Lamlam.

3. CF peeps.

4. Kimmy.

5. it's unfair to pick out five. there are more...you're all my special adorable friends. aren't you happy?

Four things you are wearing right now:

1. surfer blue shorts.

2. black tee.

3. hoop earrings.

4. ring that means a lot.

Three places i would like to go:

1. Mauritius.

2. Paris, Spain, Holland, Venice, Greece (sorry, europe tour would be fine)

3. Tahiti.

Two things you want to do before you die:

1. get married. haha.

2. write nice things and letters for everyone i know or once knew.

One confession:

1. i still steal glances.

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life's not a fairytale. 

I've been blog, tweeterville, and fb hopping.

What i came up with today was a reoccuring theme - a depressing one i may add. 

i have a question to ask,

what is it that makes us feel our emotional ties and stability is too shaken that we go great lengths to get anything back? why is it so hard to let go? why do we insist on having a relationship that hurts us so bad?

i am not pro-breakups or pro-ending-a-relationship-because-you-are-incompatible. In fact, im quite the opposite. While reading tweeterville and fb, i noticed the number of people who were supposedly in stable and great relationships only to find out that they ended things. Imma freak i know, but i tear a little everything i see these people parting ways.

I'm human, just like everyone else, I have been through heart breaks. It tears and rips. Logically, i understand the facts and reasonings of walking away and i respect people for having the strength to walk away for certain reasons. But i'm guilty of answering all the above questions because i think hard and long before going into one. I am in one because everything is a "yes" and i am certain.

So, to answer the questions, sometimes it's because you poured everything into it. Other times, its because you're not strong enough. And other times, love is more than it means to other people or rather, because it doesn't make sense for two people who are say...serious about it, waited a year to get into one, consulted everyone, asked for confirmation and yadayada, you get the picture....to depart from each other. Its a simple case of - we were meant to be together or everything was going for us. To make things simpler, breaking up sucks and its hard. The consequences that follow are even harder the next time around.

Logically reasoning, i understand and respect those who were so serious but walked away. My question is, "was it really worth it?". If it was for reasons out of love that you had to walk separately whatever your reasons may be, i have no right to argue with that. But what about those who got out of one, and started seeing someone else a few weeks later? What about those with superficial reasonings? What was your defense in that?

My statements are biased, i know that full well. But understand that girls are delicate in nature - most of them. I'm just coming from the side that doesn't cope very well with break-up and heartbreaks. 

What do you do when people walk away? The natural progression is to tell yourself that no one is perfect and if you cant count on people, count on yourself. Apparently, i can't help myself from being fragile every once in a while and someone acknowledges that. As much as i acknowledge that i was trying to be self-sufficient 2 years ago, someone walked in and told me, "that's not you and stop lying to yourself". Now that i acknowledged the fact that i am not meant to be self-sufficient, i embrace the fact that i am made in such a way that i can fully understand hurt and identify with others. Perhaps it is God's way of using me to help others who cope as badly as i do. It is a gain and a loss - gain because i am a vessel, loss because you will never forget how it feels like.

But with all the bitterness, silver lining emerges every time. And i am thankful for circumstances that put people together. you know who you are.

Again, apologies if you disagree with my statements and my statements are biased. I just cannot comprehend how people cope so easily with others walking in and out of their lives.

I guess i will never understand the statement, "people come and go. Its the nature of life".

just to clarify, no. me and him are perfectly fine.

A thought came while following a few friend's on tweeterville and fb.

when you're in one, sometimes, you cant help but wonder,

what happens when all vanishes? how would you feel?